For years before meeting him I have always thought that this is the end of the world. I was to attached of my previous relationship that it has come to the point where I let every decisions made with the permission of my ex. Now how stupid was that to think back.
Now that I met him things has gradually changed. Even the way I think, see and observe things is also changing. I am still in the process of getting to know him but so far things went well. Never will I forget that he told me even the worst person still have a great future if you trust and believe yourself. He always told me that I am worth myself and that no one could ever deny that.
This was a great relationship and I find myself always bragging about him like how I am doing now. Ha ha ha ~ -_-" I went so much for a holiday while I was with him. I have never done that previously. I went for holidays every year. Except 2016 has been my year on focusing to save money for the later occasion (may Allah ease).
I could say that this relationship is a family friend relationship. Yang paling terasa asal pegi ofis umi mesti mau mengelak sebab nda mau kena uluk oleh Pacik dia... OMG. I thought they didn't notice until 1 day kena tegur "Kau ah nda suda ko mau limpas - limpas sini mentang - mentang ko sama Ado." Oklaa.. XD It was great to have both of your family knew each other so well. But the worst thing happened is that bila ada salah faham, semua mau masuk campur. I was so down the last time it happened. And up till now I don't even know what to expect. To make it worse, him and I did not even know what went wrong, tiba - tiba seja umi marah aku. Okey =.= Teruk juga rupanya kalau pertemuan perkenalan keluarga ni. Teda isu pun jadi isu. I hope things won't repeat itself in the future time.
I am sorry for the hearts we broke in the making of our relationship. Notice that I mentioned hearts? Maybe that is why I am heartless of being with him. I did not commit my own sin but we both did instead. He should be sorry too. I must say we both have to take the blame. All I can say is I am not hoping too much. Cari duit, pelan - pelan settle down. Hopefully I'd get a better job pay in the future.
I don't want to be those couples yang sudah kawin, in the future ada anak, tapi mengharap duit mak bapak. Pampers susu anak parents yang beli. Oh my. Palis - palis. Gaya begitu patut di sumbat 6 kaki ke bawah ja..
I should get back to work. I love him. Damn.
POSTED BY Haafiza Nadia ON Monday, May 9, 2016 @ 10:11:00 AM
